My Poetry

Hello All!

Some of you have read my poetry i write every so often. I don't write this when I'm bored or is a what ever mood, i write these lines when i get inspired or am feeling something that turns into poetry. i am usually not a poetic person, more a writer, but when I'm sad, or mad, or just plain confused, writing in poems helps and gives me a chance to release my feelings in a different way.

Thank you for your readings!

Ally

Were is...

were is your laughter

deep from your heart

the one that spills over your soul

onto your heart

and into a sound

that we all love

were is that smile

burrowed bellow

the one that lights up your eyes

lights up your heart

with a single glimpse

were are those simple words

that mean the world

that warm are hearts and souls

one simple word that could change a life

were is your freedom

in your steps

in your grace

in your laughter

and faith

were is the happiness i knew

one deep bellow

wanting to come out,

but shut out from your cries

and sighs

and yearning for something more

i am here my dear

always here

even though i seem distant or lost thyself

do not worry

do not cry

for i am here

and i wish i could be someone more for you

in your lightest days

in your darkest

i wish

i wish

i wish for more to be

to see

to be someone else

more caring, more patient, more light hearted inside

so do not worry, your worries are heard

i hear what you feel your every pain

so dear, do not worry

Ally

That Friend

That friend was there for you

in letters or in person

that friend shared her secrets with you

even her deepest

that friend was loyal to you

even when you werent

that friend trusted you

to be a friend forever

that friend loved you

for you were her best friend

that friend was hurt by you

and you dont even know

that friend was betrayed by you

when you flaunted past

that friend cried for you

even though it never helped

that friend had to let you go

and learn to move on

that friend never heard from you

over the years to come

that friend was sad for you

the things you'd never do

that friend is shy to say

the things you did to her

that friend who is so special

the one who earned the name

that friend who is so loyal

is a friend to all indeed

that friend you may never really know

is a miracle to her future friend she will meet one sunny day

Ally

Friend

One that whispers in you ear

the secrets of their life

one that you know the story

beginning to the end

one that understands you

when your being someone else

one that accepts you

when you feel shut out

one thats there when you are scared

they shows theres no monster there

one that helps you do your chores

even when they could have said no

one that doesnt mind your sighs

over her same crush

one that goes with you

and helps you face the world

one that seems so much smarter

but they're both the same

one that prays with you

and hopes your life be well

one that loves you know matter what

even if your crabby

one that promises they're be there

sun up or not

one that has a special thing

that not anyone can earn

that special name they deserve

that special friend they are.

Sinner

I am a sinner everyday

next to you, in front of you

everywhere i go

i deserve to die

and pay for the sins i sinned

that i brought across my land

and burned the Godliness you gave

that you died for

that you paid

nothing that i deserve

not ever or today

but your love and warming heart

you let me in

you loved me so

when i disappointed you and let go

but God you let me in

my Father up above

you love and give me chances

only you not the world

thank you Lord

my savior

the one who lost his life

to restore ours

to brighten our

and to love each other so

Sperm Donor

I dream about the day when you come to your senses
but as i said its only dreams
and a girl can dream
you broke from the beginning
when my mother bore
with your yells, your stares, you words
that tore me to the heart
i am so innocent, in my mothers eyes
i am so selfish, horrible you bicker through the night
you missed out so much from me
my growing years you missed
my first laugh, cry, a baby sigh
when i drew my fist picture
when i fell in love, kissed a boy i missed
but all that you will never see
because the evilness and demon shadow over you
good bye the man who's name is father
but in my hearty, my mind, my soul
you are only a sperm donor

Daughter's Heart

Daughter's Heart

You said you'd be there for ever
but the promise you made simply faded away like the fog in to sky
You said i was your baby
the completion of your heart
i guess i don't get it all the way
but when i stop and think
i feel that great big sadness, grief and abandonment
I'm young and learning still
but you taught me you'll never be there
yet i see you, i can tell you're somewhere far away
don't call me darling, or your sweetest love yet
because a father keeps his promise
a father loves his girl
i guess i wasn't fit for you
or simply are you incomplete
you say you'll change, i doubt it though
how many times had you said though
to mama, me and others too
i felt incomplete with your lies
your eyes, your spirit, that glows demons
i may never know the person God made for you
i may never touch the sky
but i know that God is there for me
even if you aren't


Ally

To all the little and big girls who lost their father's love